Why

I have not posted in a few days, mostly because my mind has been somewhere else other than with the mundane.
The reason why I am melancholy is some very sad news came to us last Friday. My 14 year old came home from school and told us one of her best friends was upset at school and crying. A team mate from her friend's soccer team had passed away. Later we found out she had committed suicide. At fifteen years old. I'm sorry but I just cannot imagine. The sadness I have felt over the last few days has been all consuming. My daughters are so close to her age and I really can't understand. And my feelings for that poor family. I just can't put it into words. My own parenting is coming into question. Would I know? Do I ask the right questions? Do I/we push too hard? Where is the line between encouragement and pressure?

Parenting has always been a priority in my life. My husband and I even took parenting classes when our two oldest were younger although many laughed at us for doing so. But is trying hard good enough?

Sorry to be such a Debbie Downer but self evaluation is in the air.